Yeah it sucks. And I wish I shared your hopeful optimism for more than the half of the time I'm not in actual physical pain. But I can still appreciate the hope from afar. The hope seems very admirable. Strong, yet gentle.>>26961
Especially the wine. Skip the middle man and just drink it off the cheese platter. Don't be a disgusting snob just because you've got some wine and a cheese platter.>>26962
The situation does probably sound a bit different. And I think I'll eventually get to a point where I can at least pretend in polite company that I have hobbies other than performative anguish with classical howling and doubled over weeping scored by a panel of judges against the Woolloomooloo definition.What's really complicated in the case at hand is that the person in question also happens to actually absolutely remain my closest and most important friend in known history and I probably truly do not love them any less, in a platonic kind of way, over anything that led to these latest of my many hobbies, because, really, I knew the risks all along, and we had previously acknowledged the possibility this kind of thing potentially exploding in both our faces probably not being able to fundamentally change much, because we had probably been through too much together even before any real mention of anything but friendship bracelets and platonic braiding of each others' hair.
Yet, at the same time breaking down in tears and howling like a beagle pianist for most of the time spent around them would end up making things somewhat awkward. In my limited personal experience.
And this IS probably weirdly personal for such an open forum. What kind of sicko is running this shitshow?
Anyway, I do appreciate the kind offer as well as the heavily implied to be less kind comparisons. For now screaming into the void feels most comfortable. Even if this particular void clearly does listen and use my grandiose displays of mental vomitry for marketing purposes.>>26963
It's kind of weird to go down a line like this is some kind of party and I'm saying hi to the guests. I guess it's something of a pity party. Thanks for participating.
And I think I'll be fine with the wine. A bottle here or there hardly even impairs me. Maybe I'll even safely try the full wine diet one of these days. Why not
spend all my available money on wine? I guess 'cause I gotta buy MK8 Deluxe soon. Crap. There goes my wine-based weight loss plan. Maybe screaming burns enough calories to be of remedial use.>>26966